Tuesday, May 29, 2012

2 Steps Forward, 300 Steps Back

I'm disgusting.

Yup...disgusting.

My weekend was amazingly awesome! I loved every minute of it!  It was the perfect long Memorial Day Weekend.  But...I am very disappointed in myself.

Apparently me being injured is an excuse to do whatever I want.  I don't exercise, I eat crap sometimes and now I drink?!? Wtf.  I quit drinking on this journey and only allowed myself to drink once a month or so when I was out with friends or a special event came up.  Sometimes I would drink 1-2 times a month or sometimes I would go 3 months without drinking.  I don't even think I drank on New Years Eve or Christmas.


You see...everyone has their one thing that is a trigger of poor life decisions and mine is alcohol.  Always alcohol.  I am not the type of person who drinks because they like the taste. Nope. I am the type of person who drinks to get super drunk and wasted. Pathetic....I know.  But...that's just me.  I like to have fun.  Yes of course I can have fun without drinking, but when I am out with my friends doing a bar crawl at my old college stomping grounds...ummmmm i'm gunna drink and i'm gunna get wasted. That's me, take it or leave it.


So unfortunately this weekend was full of drunk nights and days. Go me.  I probably consumed 5,000 calories just in alcohol. POOR LIFE DECISION (not the only one either)! I def regret drinking so much, but I did have an amazing time.  Sometimes I am a shy girl believe it or not and drinking lets me come out of my shell and I can be my outgoing insane wackjob self. Hahahaha.  I guess you need to know me to understand what I mean. :)


So this weekend was great and I hung out with some amazing friends.  We acted like we were in college and it was amazing.  Here are a few pics from college vs this weekend.  As you can see...we HAVE grown up a little bit...our pics are a little more mature. Maybe.
Me and Brenna
2008
Not College, but still hot messes.

Me and Brenna
2012





Me, Steph and Jenn
2007

Me and Jenn
2012


Me & Steph
2007

Me & Steph
2012

2012
More grown up?
Never.



So the main idea behind this post is that I am hungover at work and somewhat mad that I did not control my drinking this weekend.  I drank wayyyy too much and probably gained weight. I need to remember why I started this journey and stop messing up!!!  ugh...no ones fault but my own.

I really need to find exercise that I can do without hurting my hamstring more. It seems like when I exercise I also eat right and therefore see results. I might try and go to the gym tonight and try swimming.  I heard that might be ok for my hamstring...but then again does it really matter? I am sporting 5inch wedges at work today....so if I can do that then I really should be working out.  I am sick of being stuck where I am and I really need to lose more weight.  I have to stop this drinking trend and start being healthy again!!!!!

...but not until after this friday...it's a Delabration bitches! (UofD alumni weekend!! Partayyyy)

I'm an idiot.

1 comment:

  1. I am lucky in the fact that I am a big ole Mormon, therefore I don't drink alcohol! It makes it SO much easier to not have that temptation in my face (although in my crazy high school days I did a LOT of experimenting with alcohol and discovered that I do not like myself when I drink or am on anything else). I figured that I am who I am, and just because alcohol lowered my inhibitions and helped me come out of my shell, it still wasn't me! I was insecure and I was using alcohol to try and get myself past that, but the thing was: the weight was still there in the morning when I was sober.
    DOn't beat yourself up, and just tell yourself that today is a new day (and not a holiday weekend anymore). You can still totally get back on track!

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