I have been waiting 16 MONTHS to write this post. The post that is supposed to be so EXCITING and HAPPY! The post where I shout out to the world that I have lost 50lbs!
Yeah well....I lost 50lbs, oh wait....then I didn't. :(
Last week I weighed myself and noticed that I was 264.2lbs on Thursday and had lost 2lbs putting me OVER the 50lb mark. I was shocked because I wasn't able to work out early that week because of my hamstring. But I didn't question it too much because I was on point with my food and was still
I can't believe how amazingly supportive everyone on FB was! It made me feel so great seeing everyone's encouraging comments and "likes." I was SO insanely happy on Friday, I felt like I was unstoppable.
But no one is unstoppable, are they?
Now, almost a week later, I am regretting my decision to tell people my progress. I just weighed myself this morning and apparently I have gained almost 2lbs back. It's heart breaking!!!! To tell people you reached a goal and then a few days later....you find out your a liar. It's a terrible feeling and it makes me so frustrated. Of course it's 100% my fault that I gained those 2lbs but I know I wouldn't have if I wasn't hurt, and that is what makes this so damn upsetting.
My hamstring is so painful I can barely walk. I have been icing it and putting compression on it and even went to the dr. I have to get an MRI on Monday because the dr said I may have torn my hamstring and in the meantime all I can do is rest and pop percocets and muscle relaxers. Fun right? No.
I can't work out, I can't do anything and it's making me gain my weight back. My food intake has been great and I even started incorporating clean meals and super healthy protein packed breakfasts into my diet. Eating chia seeds has also really helped me eat less and not crave terrible food. So what is going on?? I know that weightloss is 70% diet and 30% exercise and that abs are made in the kitchen, so what gives? The only thing I can think of is that I have been extremely active for the past year and a half and my body isn't used to just sitting around. Idk what is going on but it is not good.
So needless to say, I feel awful today. I want to just crawl into a hole and pout. Way to go Julie....tell 800 people you lost 50lbs and then less than a week later you gain enough that you really didn't lose 50lbs. So frustrating.
These past 2 weeks have really tested me and taught me a lot about myself. It has shown me how much I really want this lifestyle change and weightloss. I want it soooo bad. My life has changed so much that working out is something that I NEED in my life. It is my outlet to my own little world of happiness. It makes me feel happy and amazing. Without it, I just feel bored and unaccomplished.
I really hope I can get this injury taken care of as soon as possible. All I want is to be able to run again and continue on my journey. I have hit many speed bumps the past year, and I still continued on. This is just another bump in the road that I have to learn to overcome.