That my friends...is kinda scary.
And it has happened to me twice so far this year.
You know what?? I welcome it. Both times it has been a blessing in disguise. I am so happy with my life right now that I feel like without those changes...I wouldn't be as happy (ok well...at least one of those changes made me really happy).
- I surprise myself everyday with how strong of a woman I have become. I am not trying to brag or be conceited but I am SO proud of myself with how far I have come these past 6 months. Seriously. From being a sad pathetic girl who would be bossed around and told what to do by a dumb boy just because...to a strong independent woman who knows what she wants, knows how to get what she wants and does not settle for anything less than what she deserves. It took me a long time to figure out that I am a great girl who deserves something special. It's a complete 180 and I could not be happier with the place I am in today. (go me) :)
- Work...yikes. What a crazy few weeks it has been for me here. I basically was "forced" into a new position that I did/do not want. It is a position that I did at another company right out of college so for me it's a few steps backwards. Ugh. The reason I am in it now is because the person who coordinates the company tradeshows for the past 20 years is leaving. No one else in the whole company knows how to do this but me. So to the higher ups it was an obvious decision to make me do it. Should I feel happy? I suppose...it does mean they believe in my knowledge and skills in the field. However...I was not finished with my old position. I was still learning new things everyday and had a lot of experience to gain. Plus...no more traveling...total bummer. I just got back this week from my last show management trip. So sad...but me being the optimist...I have to keep my head up. There is positive found in every situation.
Why in a weightloss blog am I bringing these things up? Basically because of this: 2012 has brought on SO many challenges and I have beaten them all. I have come out on top and proven to myself that I can handle anything that comes my way. I AM a STRONG girl. Nothing can bring me down or hold me back.
At this time, it is so important for me to remind myself of this. As I am
sitting standing here typing (sitting hurts too much), I have to remind myself that these past 4 months are not a total waste. Yes I have not been able to run, yes I am in sooo much pain all day everyday, yes I have not been to the gym, yes I have eaten a little dirty at times, yes I have gained 5lbs and yes my attitude has been tested. But NO I have NOT given up. And to me...that means something.
The basic idea behind this little rant is to let myself and everyone else know that nothing will stop me from reaching my goals. It has been a year and a half and I have not given up. I have been tested SO much and have been through so many physically and mentally hard things...but I am still here. And I do not plan on going anywhere. Ever. I will meet my weightloss goals...no matter how long it takes me.