Tuesday, August 14, 2012

Shots Shots Shotttttts

shots shots shots 
shots shots shots 
shots shots shots 
shots shots shots 
shots shots shots

Can you tell i'm excited? Hahaha too bad i'm not excited for shots of the alcohol variety. I am singing shots to the LMFAO song. lol I have issues.

Today I called the spine specialist to see if I can move up my next appointment from Friday. AND I GET TO GO TODAY!!! YESSS. I am so excited. Esp since the past week has been insane.  My goal is to get the magic shot that makes the pain go away!!!


Like my normal pain times 100000.  I don't know why but I can guess it is because of all the walking and running around I did in San Francisco.  Also, my pain meds no longer work! I am like immune to them.  So the little relief I used to get from them...is no more. I used to be able to lay on my back and my leg would feel ok...not anymore.  No matter how I lay or sit it hurts SO BAD.  When i'm at work I have to sometimes stand and work on my computer. Weird.  It's awful.  At this point I will pretty much do anything to make this feel better.

Here is what my nights are like.

5:30pm- Get home from work.  Pop some pills and lay on the couch on my back.
7:30pm- Still on the couch.
9:30pm- Still on the couch.  Pop some tylenol.
11:00pm- Move to my bed. Lay on my back. Somehow fall asleep.
1:00 am- Wake up in crazy pain.  Get up and walk around my apartment.  
1:05 am- Pop pills.
1:30 am- Fall back asleep.
5:00am- Wake up in worse crazy pain, cry. Walk around my apartment. 
5:05 am- Debate the pills....end up popping stronger pills.
5:30 am- Fall back asleep.
7:30am- Wake up for work. Exhausted from a terrible nights sleep. Snooze it.
8:15 am- Finally get out of bed. Have to be at work by 8:30.
9:00 am- At work...late as hell.
REPEAT x the past 4 months.

Yup...that is exactly how my life has been.  I hate to complain all the time but it is really getting me down.  I try to stay positive and mostly I am.  I can handle this, but I am about to break.  I want it to go away.  I am always in pain and always so tired from not sleeping.  I HATE popping pills all the time but it's the only thing that can help me not die in pain.  I am SO over this!

I hope the spine specialist can put an end to this and figure out how to make it go away.  I am ready.  I want to run again!!!!!!!!! 


  1. GIANT HUGSS!! That sucks, I had no idea how terrible your pain is- I REALLY hope the spine specialist is able to help you!

  2. Lots of hugs from NC!! I hope it gets figured out soon and that you will get some relief!