I may be a little dramatic about this...but too bad.
I AM SO EXCITED FOR SURGERY TOMORROW!!!
Weird...I know. But seriously... I can not wait to be able to move, walk, sleep, drive and live without this crazy pain. Most importantly is the sleep. I have not really slept through a whole night in like 3 months. Maybe once or twice thanks to to oxycontin. I have a feeling I am going to feel like a brand new person after surgery tomorrow!! YAY!
It's been a looooong 4.5 months and I have been tested so many times mentally and physically. Mentally I have been up and down. My attitude was sometimes negative and sad but I always tried to turn that around and think positive and keep a smile on my face. In the end...there is something to learn from every situation. Even though you are going through something tough...there is always something positive found, You may have to dig rather deep to find it...but it's there. This I promise.
I know what my positive is and I have already touched on it in this blog. This injury has taught me that I am a strong girl. I can get through anything as long as I stay positive and never give up. It would have been so easy for me to just give up on this weightloss journey and go back into my old ways...and I haven't. Of course I have slipped up a bit and gotten slightly off track some days...but for the most part my lifestyle changes have stayed healthy and on point. During the past 4.5 months I have only gained about 3-4lbs. That is not bad considering I have not had a hardcore workout session the whole time and barely worked out at all(seriously can't wait to get those in again). Actually...writing this has really made me smile. I am just so excited that I have not given up on this journey. IT IS REALLY HAPPENING!! :D
Ok so enough rambling...
My surgery is at 8:30am tomorrow. Wish me luck!
p.s.- I want to thank everyone who reads this blog, follows me on twitter and/or follows me on Instagram. The support I receive from all of you is indescribable. I really feel like you are why I haven't given up. I love you all and I am so sorry for all of the whining and complaining while I was going through this! Thank you for putting up with me!! xoxo