I am in the worst pain that I have been in yet. I received my injection on Friday and so far...no relief. I have been struggling all weekend with crazy pain. I called the doctor yesterday asking what I should do, he said that it would take until Friday to feel the full effect of the shot. w.t.f.
In the meantime am I supposed to be in this much pain?! He said no. So he prescribed me some strong ass pain meds. More pain meds...just what I need! (lies)
4 months of pain.
Needless to say the pain meds didn't work. I am only supposed to take 1 pill every 6 hours and no more than 4 in a day. Well last night from 6:30pm to 3am I took 3. No relief. I was up all night in tears and woke up this morning and simply just broke down. I can't take this anymore. I can't take the pain, the lack of sleep, the impact this has on my life. I am done. I can't do it anymore. I have hit my breaking point.
I called the doctor first thing this morning to see if I should go to the hospital. I am not sure what's next. Maybe surgery? Whatever it takes...I can't do this anymore. I just can't.
The reason why this blog is titled "Who is This Girl" is because this isn't me. The past 3-4 months I have been someone else. A girl who complains all the time and is so negative. THAT IS NOT ME. I am a happy girl who loves life. Not a girl who doesn't smile. I look at the positive in every situation and the only thing I can think of that is positive in all this...is that I am proving to myself that I can get through whatever comes my way. Physically and mentally this injury is changing my life and I hate it. I want to spend my days without pain and continuing to live my healthy lifestyle. I miss that more than anything. I am not a girl who comes home from work, pops percocets and then lays on the couch all night. That is NOT who I am. And I refuse to let that happen anymore. I refuse.
Last night and this morning I hit my rock bottom. I AM DONE. I am demanding this to be taken care of as soon as possible. I want my life back.
And I want my real smile back too...
I have a doctors appointment tomorrow at 1:30pm with the doctor who did my injection. Most likely we will be going over the next steps. Either more injections or surgery :( I really just want a solution...