Friday, January 25, 2013

Happy 2 Years!

Today marks 2 years that I have been on this weight loss journey.  AND WHAT A JOURNEY IT HAS BEEN.  Wow.  So many ups and downs.  So many accomplishments and so many setbacks.  What is most important is that I concentrate on how far I've come these past 2 years. I have changed so much and I am so proud of that!! I am going to compile a list of the past year so I can reflect on what has happened.

Set Backs

  1. Back Surgery:  This has probably been the most difficult mental experience I have ever had to deal with.  I hurt myself in April 2012 from running and had to stop almost all activity.  It was heart breaking.  Especially since that was the time I was really starting to fall in love with running.  That August I decided to have surgery and it was a life saver.  I ended up gaining about 20lbs during that time but the GREAT news is...I am back to running!  It may have been a set back...but it didn't bring me down.  I am working my way back to where I was before I got hurt.  Yes...it is so frustrating but it just shows me how hard I want this weightloss.  Nothing will stop me. Ever.
  2. Break Up: I broke up with my boyfriend of 3 years in 2012.  It was the best decision of my life.  Yes it wasn't fun while it was happening but I am 100% a better and STRONGER person because of it.  I am SO happy right now and concentrating on myself 100%.  I do what I want when I want and I focus on me.  Only me.  It is just what I need at this time.  I need to do things for me and improve myself so I can love myself.  Sounds corny but it's true. I'm still counting this as a set back because no matter what...break ups suck. So bad.
  3. 44lbs: I am counting my current weightloss as a set back because ..come on....2 years and I've only lost 44lbs?!  That's terrible!! I lost that much in my 1st year!  So that means I have been doing a shit job in the weightloss department for a WHOLE YEAR.  Upsetting...annoying.  Ugh just writing this makes me kinda sad. I am very disappointed with myself.  I guess I can just turn that disappointment around and make it motivation.  But still....for 2 years it should be way more. 
So those are my setbacks.  They aren't too bad.  I am an optimist mostly so I can def turn all 3 of  those setbacks into positives.  They don't bother me too much.  Except the 44lbs thing...that's a little upsetting.  However, for every setback I have there are about 10 accomplishments to replace it.  And that makes me HAPPY!!!  I may have only lost 44lbs in 2 years but I have come SO FAR!

Accomplishments
  1. I feel AMAZING!
  2. I lost 3 dress sizes.  From a 24 to a 18.
  3. I can RUN!
  4. I haven't given up. 
  5. I have more confidence.
  6. I learned that if I push myself hard enough, I can do anything.
  7. I love shopping for workout clothes. 
  8. I'm addicted to the gym. 
  9. I am determined to run a 5k in September 2013.
  10. I have less cheat meals.
  11. I cook healthier.
  12. I gave up soda (52 days!)
Ok that's all I got for now.  But those accomplishments make me happy and I forget about the setbacks when I think of them. It's been a crazy/emotional/amazing 2 years and I am so proud to have not given up.  I am anxious to see what is in store for me! :)

Now...on to regular blog material...

It's been a good week for working out! I have been a beast.  I went and did Zumba on Monday, rest day Tuesday, Zumba on Wednesday and then I went to the gym and ran last night.  I love it. 

Monday Night Zumba

Wednesday Night Zumba
I am trying to get those runner ankles/legs!
Thursday Night Run Sesh
I did week 4 day 1 of the couch to 5k program Thursday night.  I was a little nervous for this one because it would be the hardest session so far of the program.  It was a 5 min warm up walk then you jog 3 mins, walk 90 secs, jog 5 mins, walk 2.5 mins, jog 3 mins, walk 90 secs, jog 5 mins.  I was nervous but I'm not sure why.  I started off feeling weird about running last night.  My legs felt tight and I couldn't get into my running groove right away.  I just felt off.  Finally towards the end I was able to get into the running zone and zone out and just run.  It's an awesome feeling when you get that. My mind goes blank and I just stare at something and zone out. I feel the music and run to the beat.  It's my happy place.  I felt great when I was done. I felt accomplished. Afterwards I was wondering why I was so nervous.  I did it!  After the 31 minutes of C25K I walked on an incline for 15 mins.  It was an ok workout!

Because I knew my C25K program was going to get more intense on the running part (less walking) I decided that I needed a new playlist.  A playlist of just running songs.  My favorite songs that motivate me to just RUN. 

Running Playlist.
Love it!
Christina Aguilera, Britney Spears, Green Day, Young the Giant,
Lady GaGa, Cee Lo and Weezer
My all time FAVORITE running songs that
MOTIVATE me SO much!

This playlist really helped me get through all the running.  I couldn't do it without it!! Love itttt.  

When I got home last night I wanted to eat a healthy clean meal.  Of course I went to my go to fav meal.  Avocado, tomato, red onion, salt and pepper with shrimp.  So yum.


I am anxious to start my weekend and I am planning to stay on track.  I will be running at the gym tomorrow morning and then I am heading down to Delaware to see my friends.  It will be a good weekend! 

4 comments:

  1. Congratulations on two years! I have so much to say to you but it hardly seems possible to say it all in a comment!!! It really is okay to have setbacks but the accomplishments are what you should focus on. With that said I think maintaining and keeping 44 pounds off for a year is an accomplishment my dear! Okay so you lost 44 pounds in the first year but you maintained it for a year. Coming from a girl whose done this whole weight loss thing for 9 years let me tell you maintaining is HARDER than losing. I've lost it, gained it, lost it, gained it. No fun. You are probably better off having taken it slow and adjusted for a while.

    With that said, you are now focused and ready to take on part two of your experience... You are ready and capable.

    Basically every life is full of struggles and setbacks. It wouldn't be life if it wasn't, but what we do with those setbacks are what defines us. Having back surgery is hard but necessary, you move on. Breaking up with the person who isn't right for you is hard but necessary, you move on.

    I am proud of you. Two years is amazing. That is an accomplishment. I can tel you are in the right state of mind to continue this journey. Your accomplishments are great and you are doing it! Coming from a fellow runner I completely get it. I ADORE, completely LOVE my runners calves. They are my favorite part of my body. I love my rock hard calves from hours and hours of running. They have logged many miles and that makes me proud. Keep at it and you WILL get there.

    I love your play list too... I completely zone out when I run too it is my zen happy place for sure! Enjoy your weekend too!

    Oh and I love avocado but have never done it with shrimp and that looks amazing I am going to have to try that. Thanks for the idea!

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  2. I'm so proud of you for reaching your 2 year anniversary, and I LOVE your optimism! Just focus on all those great accomplishments and how you overcame your setbacks to get there! Keep up the great work!

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  3. Wow congratulations :) Getting back to running after a back surgery is no mean feat! Thats awesome :)

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