My very first post on Beautiful Chunk was on January 3rd, 2011.
3 years ago.
WOW! 3 years...has it really been that long? It seems like just yesterday I was eating a donut and popping buttons off my size 24 pants...oh wait...that was yesterday. Hahaha jk...but I did eat a donut on Sunday...no shame. Well...maybe a tiny bit of shame...maybe.
Am I where I thought I would be 3 years after I started? Hellllll no, but who is? It's so hard to be on a weightloss journey and give yourself a time frame for accomplishments. Yes, it is very possible to say you want to loose 100lbs in 3 years and actually do it...so very possible. But for me...it wasn't, and I'm ok with that. I knew that this would be a forever journey for me...there would be no quick fix to the weight problem I have had my whole life. No easy way to change the bad habits I created since I was old enough to make my own choices. No easy way to gain motivation to burn more calories than I take in. No easy way to lose this weight. This is a life long journey, and life ain't easy.
I'm very proud of myself though. Even though it seems like I can't get over the 50lb mark, I haven't given up. Shit...I've even gained 15lbs back and I'm still not giving up. I will keep fighting this fight until the very end because that's how much I want this. I'm not a failure because I've gained 15lbs back, I'm a winner because I'm still determined to lose it...plus more! Everyone has set backs, I don't care who you are, you have them. I've had many set backs over the past 3 years and I'm not afraid to admit that. I always said this blog would be real and real is being honest. Honest is going on My Fitness Pal and weighing in. Honest is seeing that 50lbs lost decreasing to 35lbs lost. Honest is accepting it and making a move to change it.
So...happy 3 years, Beautiful Chunk!