I have to be honest. I am really struggling lately. I'm sure you can tell by my recent posts. And by recent I really mean the past 6 months...or more.
Recently I have been really sad about it all. I know that my lack in progress is 100% my own fault and that it's up to me to turn that around. I even started looking into weight loss surgery. UGH I know...this is something I was always against and I still kinda am (for myself). For me it's just not the way I want to lose weight...but recently it's been very tempting... I know it's not the right choice due to the fact that me being chunky is a mental battle and not a physical one. Having weight loss surgery will fix the physical but not the mental, and that's where I need help. A lot of help. :(
I went to zumba last night...the zumba I always used to love and be so excited to go to. Yeah...not so excited anymore. My attitude was so negative last night and I was in a funk. I didn't want to be there and I did not like the negativity I was spewing out of my every being. That's not me and I need to fix that. Immediately.
I hate to make excuses but I really think a lot of this will go away once the weather gets nicer. I feel that I am my most motivated when I can get outside for my long walks/runs. I love smelling the smells of nature on my walks instead of the smell of nastiness from the guy next to me at the gym. I used to just head out on an evening after work and walk 5 miles and it was amazing. I am really looking forward to doing that again! I think that will fire me up and respark my motivation! Spring can't come soon enough...where are youuuuu?