I've always been honest on this blog and just because I haven't been blogging for awhile...ahem...like the past year or so...doesn't mean I will stop being honest. I have nothing to hide, I am who I am even if that means letting the world know how much I actually weigh now. So here we go...
I weighed in last night at 329.4lbs.
Yup...not only did I gain back those 50lbs I lost 2 years ago but let's add an extra 15lbs to that. I'm not mad at it. Disappointed, YES, but not mad. I went through a lot in the past year or so and I knew that this would happen. I guess it just shows that I wasn't ready for the realllll life change. Am I ready now? Who the f knows but I'm going to try again!!
That's me! Starting my journey once more. Story of my life but I will always keep going. I never did give up, I guess I just needed to start over? Who knows, all that matters is I'm back at it! I went to my first meeting last night and Tuesdays will be my new weigh in day. That means I have one day of damage control after the weekend...haha jk...kinda...? :)
Knowing myself, I know what is important for me to succeed. The #1 thing is I need support. I can not do this myself, I need help. No, not from my friends who are great btw, but by someone who is unbiased and understands what I go through everyday. Someone who understands that this isn't as easy as "just stop eating bad food" or "just work out more." I think I found what I need! I absolutely LOVE the meeting leader and the ladies who do the weigh ins. They are awesome. They were so sweet, supportive and encouraging. I felt the connection I was looking for as soon as I stepped up to be weighed in. Love love love. Not to mention that the fact she wrote little hearts in my name....omg come on. In love. The meeting leader was so comforting and genuine. She sat down and talked to new members and you could tell she understood why we were there and genuinely wanted to help. That is what I was looking for and that is what makes me successful.
So here goes my first week! Wish me luck!